Happy Birthday, the dead, and money again

Tonight is all souls, the day in the church calendar when we remember the dead, and today my mind wonders as ever to my brother and father both long since dead. I don't think i want to say a lot about just that i feel emotional. Tomorrow is my birthday but i feel distinctly unexcited about it particularly having checked the state of the bank account. We are down to £30 till the end of December. This isn't as bad as it sounds as we are due money from the ministry division however, that money is yet to materialise so i think it will be dried bread and dripping this year!