Well folks, ref: "Confessions & Lies" - I phoned up instead of emailed...and the person I need to speak to is away till September, so I can do nothing but wait for a little while.
I have been giving some thought to deleting a couple of my previous post – most notably confession and lies. Now that I have decided how to address it (thanks for all the mail) I thought that maybe I should get rid of the post in case it’s stumbled on by others in the future. After all it doesn’t show me in a good light. However, I think that part of the problem with this “trying to be followers” lark is that it’s very easy to believe that we are more terrible than anyone else; that our sins are somehow huge in proportion to anyone else’s, and that everyone else has got it sorted. So I am keeping the posts up – and will do my best to keep presenting here – (as Susan Howitch puts it) the unvarnished truth. At times that will be fairly dull but I hope you will bear with me.
So then...SEX!
I think it is worth talking a little bit about sex with a pregnant lady. Well okay, sex with my wife, as that seems to be the way this marriage thing works! I find pregnant women attractive. I find my pregnant wife very attractive. BUT, and here it is folks, there is something very off putting about putting your arm around your wife, running your hand down over her body and thinking “my baby is in there...wonder if it will kick.” Don’t get me wrong, I am more than aware that I am not going to get close to him/her “in the act” but it somehow seems a bit off to find it a turn-on to run your hand over your wife’s belly when it contain a baby...surely it’s kind of incest...almost? Does anyone understand this? Is it just me? My wife is gorgeous... stunning...glowing...sexy..but when it comes to bed time..it just seems...I don’t know...a bit odd?
Showing posts with label truth. Show all posts
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Tuesday, 12 August 2008
Friday, 1 August 2008
Baby Scan
We have just had a baby scan. I know what I am meant to say here. I know the rules of this game, and I know there are some women reading this, and I don’t want to get in trouble so..
"WOW its just so incredible to see my baby! I can't begin to tell you how exciting it was to see my baby…" Okay, you can stop reading now. Leave it right there and everyone will be happy.
The first scan was incredibly exciting, and was really clear, and I did feel all those incredible emotions. The second one was a few weeks later, and wasn’t such a big deal as we had been for the emergency scan already, and in honesty the second scan wasn’t as clear as the first one.
This one – well to be honest there was lots of searching around and “we” had decided not to find out the baby's gender (I am sure I have talked about that so won't go on about it again). So for me, as that was something they could look for and were not, its like being told; "here is something really exciting (okay, okay, someone) but you don’t get to know the exciting bit yet – the surprise bit – and you don’t get to play with it yet." Please don’t hate me – I was bored.
It's not that I am not excited about having a baby, I really, really am. It's just that, well, an odd medical image which looks like an x-ray on a monitor just didn’t make my heart flutter. I know I should have been wiping a tear away from my eye, but in all honesty I was fighting the urge to pick up my book. Okay, this makes me a terrible person, I know that, I suspect particuarly mothers, expectant and those already with children will be thinking; “OH, he is one of those men”, but I thought it worth posting the unvarnished truth, as I have a suspicion (okay, a hope) that I am not alone in this...
Yours as ever,
The Broken Man
"WOW its just so incredible to see my baby! I can't begin to tell you how exciting it was to see my baby…" Okay, you can stop reading now. Leave it right there and everyone will be happy.
The first scan was incredibly exciting, and was really clear, and I did feel all those incredible emotions. The second one was a few weeks later, and wasn’t such a big deal as we had been for the emergency scan already, and in honesty the second scan wasn’t as clear as the first one.
This one – well to be honest there was lots of searching around and “we” had decided not to find out the baby's gender (I am sure I have talked about that so won't go on about it again). So for me, as that was something they could look for and were not, its like being told; "here is something really exciting (okay, okay, someone) but you don’t get to know the exciting bit yet – the surprise bit – and you don’t get to play with it yet." Please don’t hate me – I was bored.
It's not that I am not excited about having a baby, I really, really am. It's just that, well, an odd medical image which looks like an x-ray on a monitor just didn’t make my heart flutter. I know I should have been wiping a tear away from my eye, but in all honesty I was fighting the urge to pick up my book. Okay, this makes me a terrible person, I know that, I suspect particuarly mothers, expectant and those already with children will be thinking; “OH, he is one of those men”, but I thought it worth posting the unvarnished truth, as I have a suspicion (okay, a hope) that I am not alone in this...
Yours as ever,
The Broken Man
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