Update

I still haven't written the birth story out, i keep planning to, i start it, and i loose it.

Thank you all for your warm wishes it means the world. Well obviously not the whole world, that would be crazy, i mean how hard is it to post a comment (yes i havent done it for a while) but, the sentiment, the thingy expressed behind that other stuff, thats nice. Look i am trying to say i appreciate it and thats that, didnt want to get into this whole blah write up of dullness and make you all wish that in honesty you had stayed very clear.

Birth stuff - will write up soon promise - well no not promise - but will try ....It was 39 hours, and my beautiful baby was born weighing in at 9 pounds and half an ounce. She was delivered at home and mum and baby are doing well.

The first 24 hours we seemed to have the most placid baby in the world, however, it seems, she suffers somewhat from wind and is not a great fan of listening to her fathers advice that crying wont necessarily improve the situation. As such i seem to be rather lacking in sleep, something which has come as a bit of a shock to me. I mean really there is no need for all this crying buisness. There really isnt. And I have explained this to her, and she doesnt seem to take in my explanation at all. I know some people suggested that she might react in this way, but really for this to be the case seems untenable. Some major adjustments are required in the whole approach to this baby thing, and my Most Gorgeous Baby seems determined that its me that makes them not her.

The Long suffering wife is finding feeding difficult right now, and is unsurprisingly shattered. she did so well getting through the birth and is coping really well with the after effects on her body - more of that later maybe. She is however persevering which makes me very proud of her, i know how hard she finds it, but she is determined to do the best for baby.

As to birth plans etc, everything we wanted we managed to stick to except a natural third stage - she had the injection for the delivery of the plasenta on my instance as she had been at the pushing stage for 2 1/2 hours and was just wipped out, as it was the blood loss was higher than we had hoped for, but just low enough that we could still call it safe. I felt very guilty agreeing to the inhjection and pushing Long Suffering Wife into it, but she had just been going to long, and needed it to all be over. She earnt her name and made me so so proud - okay am crying now. Blah. Over emotional fathers, a very unattractive site.

More later - promise! Will post all info soon - just so tired right now - struggling with aching limbs, and the discovery that i might just have a heart.

And yes i know that complaining about aching limbs after LSW gave birth is crazy! Just telling it as it is.I can hear baby crying again so better go an retrieve her from the wife.

Proud and Broken.

as ever,
The Broken Man